It has come to my attention recently that despite my best efforts in the past few years, drawing simply is not a talent I feel I possess a lot of. My drawing ability is very limited, as the only thing I can draw well is MLP:FiM style ponies. Anime I can only draw intermediate level at best, and everything else I can only draw either a beginner level of, or simply can hardly draw at all. I also have little skill in coloring. Let's be honest, my attempts to color in traditional art look like a little kid's work. I have no idea how to make it look smooth and it just hasn't come to me naturally like I expected it to. I've tried finding tutorials for it as well but the ones I looked at I just couldn't understand for whatever reason. Coloring well in digital format isn't much easier for me, and let's not forget the awful experience I had trying to get tablets to even minimally function on my PC. It also stresses me out whenever I try to draw something well, even things that I have experience drawing. It may be that I shouldn't be letting it stress me out because it stems from anxiety. Maybe I need to be more relaxed and not be so concerned about making it look amazing. I also find it hard to draw whenever I am anxious about anything else. In the last some months I was greatly stressed out over work. The source of where that stress was coming from is now gone, though, which helps a lot. Still, I haven't felt a great desire to draw to begin with. I may try to draw again eventually, but for now I've been instead focusing on what I know I do have a good amount of natural skill in and a really strong passion for, which is cooking. I've been delving into putting my own recipes together as well, something that a chef would do, but that skill I'm still learning to some degree. It's also the career choice that I'm almost sure that I'll be sticking with as well. I currently work as a baker's assistant at a cupcake shop and I quite enjoy what I do, even if it is stressful at times. I've also been finding myself in the past year reading about culinary arts a lot, watching a lot of cooking videos, and cooking just about every day, especially Japanese. Everything from the popular sushi rolls to different kinds of udon and donburi, chicken kara-age, tempura, chawanmushi, yakitori, shabu shabu, and lots of others. Culinary is what I have the most work experience in, it's my strongest talent, and I seem to have a big passion for it, so I think that's what I should focus on pursuing. I'm thinking of turning my instagram account into an archive primarily for photography of recipes I've cooked (which I kind of already have to some degree) or maybe starting a food blog, though I don't know much about blogging right now. I'm not yet sure how to broadcast my culinary abilities as a hobby like DeviantART allows artists to broadcast their talents or if I even will in the near future because I've been so busy and haven't planned it much yet, but I might figure something out.
With that, this account is now officially inactive at least for now, as I am focusing now on talent I actually do have naturally. I'm still leaving it up so that my art is still view-able, but I won't be online much and probably won't be posting much if at all anymore, unless something happens where I'll want to draw again.
Thank you to all who have watched me, commented on and favorited my work, and did art trades with me.
, I loved doing trades with you all and I'm glad you all chose me, a humble once-regular hobby artist, as someone to art trade with.
I guess all in all it was a good run, but becoming a truly skilled artist just didn't turn out as well as I had hoped, at least for now. I will post a link here if I figure out a way and decide to put my culinary arts passion out there somehow.
Thanks again and goodbye for now,